When I hear nothing, I despair. When I hear the kind word from a random reader, I am grateful and embarrassed. When a friend calls wanting to buy art, and she's bought so much already, I am heart held.
I will miss Daniel Schorr, and I am not alone in that. Who will make sense of the week's disasters? He was the old professor, the parent who could and would explain. The voice of earnest sanity. Who can take his place? Losing him is like losing a parent; there's no replacement. But we still need to hear a weekly analysis for without it, without rational thinking, we may well despair.
After voicing my small despair last week, I must follow it up with what always follows darkness: light. Cloudy, perhaps, but light nonetheless.
No, there is no rescue, but maybe that's for the best.
There is no reversal, no going back.
What is there?
Gratitude
For what?
Oh, for the ability to look around and see the arms of friends
outstretched. Their waving flutters, their high signs,
the communal hug. We are all so worried
all so busy lugging our individual baskets of fret.
But see, we can each, when shifting the load, free up one hand
and waving speak:
Wait for me. Hold on. Kick a little harder. Walk a little longer.
Home is just around the corner.
2 comments:
youre the first wave of more of the same to happen to more and more people. it doesnt make it any better for you though. be grateful you have a heard start on learning to live by your wit and adaptation -at this you will surely excel. pray for providence and fortitude the rest will take care of itself. keep the faith; make your art and if some homegrown tomatoes or cucumbers can help - only say the word.
thanks, Ande. I've missed you! It's critical to keep up with the cheerful rituals...like visiting Chickory.
AG
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